An ode to the new world!

There is a new beginning 

Right beyond that turn

All you have to do is reach there

See its just at your doorstep

And there is a new world there

It doesn't see you the way

You see yourself

It has eyes wider and brighter

A more accepting heart

A bigger  mind

That doesn't only reason

But is reasonable too

All you have to do

Is reach that turn

Its not too far

But it won't walk towards you

You can't see it unless you make the choice

It doesn't come on new year's

Or any other day you may consider auspicious 

It doesn't come at all

Unless you decide to go

And go you must

Coz its right across the corner

The corner where people looked at you oddly 

The corner which asked you to bend and tilt

The corner which cornered you

It's the turn beyond which you can't see

But feel the breeze carrying the fragrance

Of the freedom to be you...

When I close my eyes...

I have seen your tears

Sometimes at the back of the bathroom

In the red films on the whites of your eyes

At the washbasins 

Being washed off with the makeup

At dining tables

Being blown out with the cold through the nose

I have heard your sighs

Big and small

Soft and loud

Choked midway in the throat

Muffled in hmmms and ummms

Released with the fog to let the warmth in

In the whirls of your cigarette smoke

I have seen your curling and trembling

With fists clenching

Spine arching 

Shoulder shrugging 

Neck jerking 

to ward off the shudder

I have laughed with it

In the angle of your mouth

While you grin it off

Floating in between your dirty jokes

Peeping through moments of sudden quite in the bustling discourse

I have tasted it

With your never ending hunger

Goaded with forks 

Scooped with spoons

Swallowed with unheard spasms

I have known

The pain

The strife

The denial

The acceptance

The ridicule

The faith

I have seen

And closed my eyes....